Editor's Note: The passage is the vision of a sister who used to be a prostitute. Now she has become a Christian and daughter of God. She is willing to spread the gospel of God even though she still cares about comments from other people. Her testimony and story are as follows:
An acquaintance of two sinners
I went back to Xiamen from Guangdong in December, 2007. I met with Yu in a QQ group. We often chatted online. I got to know that he graduated from Xiamen University. He worked hard and did several jobs at the same time.
We made an appointment to spend Christmas Eve together. On that day he took me to the church to see the Christmas party. It was my first time to the church. In the evening we were dating like a couple, and we began to live together. We didn't know that we were making a mistake.
The Bible says: Everyone shall respect marriage and the bed cannot be filthy. God will punish those who do obscene things.
He went to work every day, but I was always at home. He asked me why not go to work. I told him nothing. I didn't have the courage to tell him my secrets. I was afraid that he would look down on me. I decided to leave him.
I packed my luggage and told him that a friend introduced me to work in Foshan. Then I went to Foshan.
God's love and kindness
When I was in Foshan working as a prostitute, Yu often called me and asked me what I was doing. However, I didn't want to tell him.
Then he learned about my job from our common friend. I told him I was just a barmaid in a hotel. He said I should not indulge myself and advised me to leave the hotel. I refused his unreasonable requirements. To my surprise, he came to the hotel for me. He said that he had quitted his job in Xiamen.
We talked for a long time. He said he would take me out of darkness. He also said I should believe God and work hard with him. I decided to go with him.
We went to Shenzhen and started a new life. We rented a house and found new jobs. However, I gradually had no confidence in our future. My confidence in the future and the sense of security were still built on the money instead of God. So I often say malicious words to make him angry. I wanted to break up with him and get free.
I really couldn't accept the salary of the job during the day. I worked all day long but got less than two thousand yuan a month. I decided to leave him and continue to make money in the hotel in Foshan.
At that time I thought I should go back to make a sum of money so that we would start a business instead of working for other people.
He persuaded me to give up the idea, but I left him once again and returned to the original hotel. I hadn't thought about his feelings. I was so selfish and only cared about myself. I wanted to make some money and reward my parents. He couldn't meet my needs.
During Christmas, I went to accompany him in Shenzhen. On Christmas Eve, he took me to a small praising concert. A song named The Best Blessing in Life impressed me. The lyrics were as follows: The best blessing in life is to know God; the best blessing in life is to believe in God. When walking in mountains and valleys, God will accompany me.
We stood in the last row and my tears flew down. This song touched my soul.
Yu told me about the creation of God, the sin of people and the salvation of Jesus' cross. He also said that I should believe in Jesus and wait for the judgment on doomsday.
I couldn't fully understand his words and I went back to Foshan for money again .I deceived him that I would stay in the hotel until the end of the year, so I would have money to reward our parents during Chinese New Year. I promised I would come back and live a peaceful life with him.
He went to Xiamen, his hometown, during Chinese New Year, thinking that I would go from my hometown to Xiamen. However, I went to Foshan in advance. When he called me he found that I was using my phone number of Foshan. He knew that I deceived him again.
He persuaded me for several days. He also begged God to change my mind.
"Leave the place. You are degenerating. Your soul is going to hells." Yu told me.
"If God really exists, I need to be rescued by him. Now let God tell me if he exists and wants to save me. I am wearing a necklace. I will throw the necklace into the air and picked it. The negative and positive decide the result."
He agreed with my method and prayed God on the phone. After I threw the necklace, I was convinced that God was there and going to save me.
I hung up the phone and went to my own bed. Suddenly I saw that my sleeping roommates have become mummies. I was frightened and realized that my life would also be like this.
Psalm 23: He woke up my soul and guided me to take on the right track.
I hid in the quilt and called him. He comforted me and let me leave there. I immediately agreed to him. The next day he came from Xiamen to pick me up. I followed him back to Xiamen.
In February, 2009, we returned to Xiamen. He worked hard for our better life, but we only had enough to eat and wear. I couldn't find a job without a diploma. I thought I could do nothing but be a prostitute. I was not seeking or learning about God. Laziness was still deep-seated in me. Finally I decided to leave him in December and went back to the hotel in Foshan for making money.
When I was back to the hotel, my guests were not as good as before. I quarreled with a guest. He grabbed my hair and hit me.
I had never been abused like this. My friends comforted me and said we might meet any kind of guests since we are prostitutes. I realized that I had lost my dignity. In order to make money, I even forgot God.
As the Bible says, those who want to make a fortune are buried in confusion desires and ruins. Money is the root of all evil. When some people covet money, they are deviating from the truth.
One day I was accompanying a guest. I woke up due to a serious heart pain at 4 o'clock in the morning. My conscience was questioned in my dream. I sat on the bed and looked at the strange man beside me.
Why did I do such dirty things here? I remembered the roommates who looked like mummies at night. I thought of the song I heard in Shenzhen "Best blessing in life". The humiliation from the guests occurred to me. I cried and regretted.
The next day, I told him these things again. He comforted and persuaded me with patience. I would like to leave the darkness. He came to pick me up the next day. I couldn't wait to leave and packed up my luggage. Once again I returned to Xiamen.
Yu never leaves me. From his love, I could see that God still loves the sinners in the world. When I heard the chorus, I was deeply touched. My soul was awakened and my conscience was condemned.
God saved me several times, but I did not really understand God's guidance at that time. Later on, I continued to make mistakes. Rebellion and laziness were so deeply rooted in my heart.
To be continued.
